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i still had to rely on occupation to keep me calm.. late into the nite, im hanging out in this pbl private study room.. its just the perfect place. with the window ajar, u can hear nightly sounds.. & looking out among the neon lights, i saw a professor walking along the pathway.. hw solemn he is in the middle of the nite.. still.. its a good way to keep life occupied.

i wanna clarify.. i was begging i knw.. it was to help myself. ppl wud think oh ya.. its just another frenship modality.. a love-hatred relationship.. but no. its forgiveness.. its on my part tt i had to solve.. its nt abt bringing back frenships with her & me, but its abt resolving the internal suffering going on for a long yr. i wnted to really mention a few ppl in this respect.

my mei.. i've really nothing to say.. i almost literally cried my heart out, reading her typo. i can never substitute frenship more for her.. keep it to me. i'm still hanging there.. ying is another one, a bneian fren i met with the help of a rental advert. 30 mins of counseling frm a psy undergrad, she wasnt practising.. like mei, sharing her experiences & insisted its tme to let go.. others to my sis and fam who's been worried abt me..

nxt.. u knw wt.. i miss certain ppl.. wnevr i pass by ppl talking in a dialect of interest, i'd smile.. when i passed by and met a dog of interest 4 the 1st tme, i'd think of tt person, a fren.. happy tmes then bt nw situation looks same as me. just hpe everythn goes out fine for her..

i learned things so drastically 4 tse past three years.. with no regrets. the pumps look okay.. giardiasis is fantastic.. gillick competence? but with human nature.. who cud've possibly tght tt will be the only large issue i've always been facing.. time to be dr. house..