mixed feelings~

i think this post will be quite interesting i think.. a bit different from other previous posts.. when i thought my blog was all about blabbering the usual daily stuffs, the bits and pieces of fun and life i have now here in aus.. i still think feelings do come occasionally and hope to think tat this is a good place to list them down and record what i've been through..

nevertheless, i also very much hope tat these posts wouldn't go through public reading but only to those who really know me and who are sincerely willing to read and feedback upon my thoughts and feelings.. so i can haf this kinda thing whereby frens can actually feedback upon frens very openly without having to fear any unnecessary public intervention.. heheh.. dunno.. but so far no frens are like me who blog so often like anything except for some whom i know..

ok now.. talk about life.. these few days have been very good so far knowing tat im actually sharp again.. referring to sharp here, i mean im more of the type of person whom i used to be during my high school and not the popular dull and blur character tat ppl know me well of at university level.. hmm.. i've no comment actually but all i can say is.. i'm able to cope with life very well so far.. being able to maintain balance between work and play.. social and daily acts like cooking, classes and stuffs.. as i do know, these things have to actually be taken care of if life's expected to be a bit better or smooth flowing.. so yea, so far so good..

now.. feelings.. love stories, movies, episodes.. etc.. all u want can be seen rite written below.. :p haha.. and to say love here doesn't actually mean love.. but the usual type of feeling all mature guys have on girls.. hah~ i really hope to share all these to my guy frens but hope the girls dun read this.. :p and p.s. thomas i'm not gonna plagiarise ur tactic style of describing the interesting love stories tat u've experienced but sort of.. u know.. use them a bit.. haha..

first things first.. my first 'like' for a girl in aus.. man.. this is private.. hmm.. i really like her personality and this is something which i usually look for.. u know as in.. my.. hah~ yea.. i mean.. i usually look for personality and somehow this is the attribute of which the right type can actually slam a great deal of impact upon me and i'd really be stunned.. crap wat im talking abt.. :p ok i'll come back to this very soon..

yesterday was another great day of ccm fun.. all the guys gathered previously and decided we were to haf bbq on this day.. so great scenery of food and the slurping taste of bbq drums, pork cutlets, hamburgers & marshmallow pudding.. the nite was the time we guys get to have fun, playing ping-pong and bluff but somehow.. my feelings went to a peak a bit during the event due to something.. i've been thinking about it or rather~her lately but must be the chat tat somehow spoiled it.. sigh.. to those who dunno wat im talking abt.. take it like its just a crap thing.. :D

so yea.. ppl can be quite different and tats the sad thing.. so happy + mixed feelings.. can't describe the latter.. now move on to the next.. today i was a bit late.. not to say late but on time for a class so i had to take a seat in the front.. a girl somehow came in soon after me and guess wat.. she went to sit beside me.. of coz why i mention this is coz she's chinese.. heheh..

on seeing her, the first impression is a good one.. she's pleasant looking, wearing specs, with mid-slim hair and mediocre attire.. and i know somehow u couldn't judge a book by its cover but frm her every act and move + appearance, i judged her as to say.. a person with very nice personality..

man so i.. not to say i like.. but u know.. a bit.. want to make frens kinda feeling.. soon she covered her face for quite a while and i thought she needed help.. so i glanced towards her and she was bleeding.. she asked for a tissue and i quickly reached one frm my bag.. after tat i just kept still..

throughout the lecture i couldn't help much but to think of her.. i know in this kind of situation you wudn't feel good going on acting normally but rather u wud wanna like 'wat's happened..', 'how r u..', 'need help..?', 'want me to company u to the clinic?'.. :p but i just sat still while she kept the tissue close to her nose..