i cherish..

i blogged for the dusk and the dawn but it is now tat i blog and get it posted.. it's almost midnight.. fifteen minutes to 12.. the two drafts were unable to make it coz the first was tat.. was just too tired to get it done.. second was just long and blury draft.. so this time for third, i make it a product done..

just thomas came by to meet me.. we had a normal chat.. then somehow he blurted out something which touched me.. he said there's no one he could talk to.. things abt personals, abt things frm the heart he'd talk to me and no one else.. and tat i'm his best fren among the guys.. this really motivated me in terms of being a fren.. a fren's role to care.. to endure for any unpleasant moments and to share life together.. coz recently after coming back, i just could feel the distance.. i could feel tat speaking together wasn't fluent as how it used to be..

but frm here i know all what i've done and did was frm my heart and employment of my personality really played a role.. i'd always try to care, to help and to concern for others.. always maintain sincerity and good behavior just to nurture a good social environment.. this is coz i learnt and i had feedback frm my best fren.. tat personality no matter how bad our surrounding is.. we just have to lower ourselves down and take initiative to talk to others.. we just know this is the best way to go.. thanks shee mei.. i will never give up my personality..

currently i learnt.. i cherish.. things of the past have build me up to the person who i am now.. so i went to recall them once again.. i remembered the best challenge came at college and university level.. i've not visited md but i visited ubd.. just a couple of days ago, i had to meet up with sharon to the uni.. we had a chat with several lecturers at im before i left her and wander around the uni's science faculty..

i had many memories here.. mainly hardships and challenges.. one particularly worth to mention was meeting my used-to-be best fren.. to reminisce how she used to change me.. to bring me up frm a livingless state to someone better.. to show how frenship can be tat imprtnt and most to make me stronger.. i've always known tat she was my life savior.. tat's why i came back after a chaotic period between us and glad tat was an emotional chat.. still i need accommodation.. things have really been different since..

i went to the library to ponder more upon things.. its where i used to do regular studying, still in vain i couldn't achieve good results.. spent the whole aft there.. relaxing, playing the laptop, reading the bible and just enjoying the place.. next was to drive around town..

did anyone know driving around, wandering for sights and scenes is my usual thing to do when i just feel like doing nothing.. the past was full of tat.. i went to tungku beach where i used to have solace after stresses.. sometimes watching sunset.. enjoying the waves among the rocks while i lay down, as the breeze blows pass by.. then my fav place would be bandar.. where i'd go to the port and tamu(market place).. just to walk around and experience the life of native bruneians as they went on to do their trading and boat activities..

tamu changed.. to become more modern to say.. the metal roofs have completely been replaced to plastic tents and stalls have become more well-organised.. they used to sell kueh in the aft, now no more.. so i went to the famous kueh place just behind GP minimart to buy the mouth-watering local delicacies.. have been missing them lots.. i'd also go to gadong pasar malam to buy noodles and fried bananas.. just my fav.. with the usual smoky and lively scene at the market itself..

tat's why miri itself is a nice place to go.. now i would even wonder if i could just stay by my grandparents' place helping to do those regular farmers' and housework and just relaxing for the whole aft, napping in a non aircon room.. i'd just love to exp the out of city life.. to get out of media.. the tvs.. the gatherings.. the computer.. ppl.. just to relax the mind and not doing anything.. so tat when semester starts, it's a whole life effort once again.. :)

hah.. pity tat life nowadays isn't tat fulfilling.. too much nightly outings tat actually switched my life completely around particularly time based.. u must be thinking gatherings like this must be fun having to go out, play games, laughing out loud, watch football, having supper etc. to me, it's fun yes.. but does it really mean fun.. does it do you joy in the end after all these?