mixed feelings2~

erm.. after the class ended, i went to ask abt her.. she replied it could be due to dry nose and i asked her to take more paper.. she said its alrite, she could use the toilet.. she just took one piece of damn tissue frm me while i gave her the whole packet.. tats wat i like abt it.. :p soon b4 she left, she stood up.. looked at me and hesitated..

we kinda dunno wat else to do next.. all she said was sorry.. we then stared each other for quite a while as if we're expecting something.. then i replied.. 'no, its ok..' then she left.. to me.. i think there's a tendency for a frenship and i could have done more but.. sigh.. so kinda disappointed la.. u know miss a chance to make a good fren.. expected 'good' fren.. hmm.. so there goes an episode of my story.. it'll continue.. i'll meet her soon in class kali ah.. hah~

sometimes i do believe in fate.. if u're meant to be with someone, it just so happens tat at one point in life, things will work out just as fine.. erm.. at first i thought it was for me.. ahem.. back to where i left.. we bumped into each other quite often and i was thinking er.. a bit strange coz i hardly even get to meet my biomed mates in uni.. and coincidentally.. she's the one whom i've alwez been thinking of.. hmm.. wat do u think ppl.. :p

i still think these things can be quite complicated.. sometimes it works.. sometimes it doesn't.. sometimes it works for one and sometimes.. one will run away from the other.. get the idea? haha.. so yea.. i dunno wat to do but not to bother too much.. i may be keen but my decision is still a no.. thought life could use a bit of peace w/o the ups and downs of a relship~ which can be quite tedious and bothersome in life.. so yea just stay as one..

erm.. anything else.. oh yea.. u can say tat so much of the same similar things happen these few days.. today again.. the only chinese girl in my anatomy class besides the two supergirls~ (oh yea.. sharon thanks for knocking on my door tis morning.. :p) last week, i was already keen to get to know her but didn't get to.. after a disappointing early morning, this time i thought i wouldn't let myself down again.. this one's :D..

went to sit beside me a few chairs away.. sigh.. no one in between lgi.. couldn't help but to ente'tein my group of bruneian frens sitting around me.. lecture's over.. didn't get to know.. thought the prac straight after tat i would.. but went on to be egoistic again and plus this procrastination and acting cool kinda thing.. jeez.. hai~ disappointment again.. another soon-to-come episode for this as well.. next week anat class.. ;p

so tat makes three influential "stuffs" tat i'd had for the past two days.. its like three.. three.. 3... those who really know me, i've got this special three kinda thing.. three during o-levels, at a-levels.. ubd.. and now in aus.. heheh.. soon we'll see...

one last thing i wanna mention here.. 118's her bday.. somehow the date kinda had some effect on me as well.. all this recent while, i've been trying to be positive about the possible outcome between us.. thinking she'd eventually revert back to herself and not the type which prejudice comes into play.. but still i dunno wat to expect.. knowing nothing abt how she feels now or how she's viewing upon me.. she used to be an up-bonus for me and for my mood whenever i think of her but now.. i knew i could've just let it be and not to think about her as often again..

previous post was a bit of a mistake.. somehow reminded me back to the times when something unfortunate came about at one point of our frenship.. used to be very anticipated upon the day to come.. eagerly planning for a surprise.. but now couldn't do much.. erm.. still in my heart, she's a life savior..

tat goes the same to nicole.. a life saver.. heheh.. ok la.. enuf long already kua.. longest post ever.. like i really achieved something.. :D looks more like a story book than a blog.. lolz.. sharon's a big fan of my blog~ and i'm waiting for her to comment.. she insisted this 4-page post so yea this is dedicated to her~ lala.. enjoy~