two days

smetmes i can be tis negative.. maybe im just tired~

lizzy.. ur conflicts match the same no as mine.. in fact, i never had conflicts before in my life, less only when love comes to interfere.. u had ur intention and u executed it.. we both lost the same amount.. in the end, what comes?
what's peculiar is you the one whos not being able to bring abt the kind of normal treatment a fren wud hope for, tgh i was the victim of ur harsh damned words.. in dec, i din mind those and hoped to come back as a sincere 'ko' if u wud like coz i always have this hope.. i guess after jan, you no longer matter anymore..

what's my point here.. someone did the same thing too.. she prepared a certain situation.. thinking it was the right way and had it made.. it caused a chaotic environment between us in our relationship.. and i dun even know if she knows hurting is a sin.. while in normal case as being tot im in a family, shes my sister.. guess the end din work pretty well.. it left a scar.. and as time past, i was beginning to think she's more a b* than a fren.. for the regrets.. for the things i've given up.. tats how intense the hatred is..

tat's negative part.. on the positive side, which i can make it is to think tat all this has past.. what now is now.. all i want now is anything not unpleasant.. anything bad, i'll def kick them out of my life.. this is now the way i live and i will only think abt the good things..

think i'm enuf negative.. guess it was just the syndrome of tireness.. hope i din go too far.. i was quite mentally withered and physically these two days wandering around town and having fun.. yest, i had a few chores done b4 going out with abby.. it was tat kind of trip tat i'd long to have and it was all positive.. glad!

it was quite fun.. we boarded the citycat and tot i needed a breeze.. we got in frnt of the vehicle.. the weather was absolutely tremendous.. it was cool and just nice.. sunset was quite serene.. it was like riding one of the rides in sentosa.. the breeze flowed and we just had fun by making a fool of ourselves with our hoarse voices.. :p

after a movie, we walked around the city.. i guessed it wasn't much after all besides knowing her craving for food.. i like the night's city view esp when we crossed the bridge.. the whole arena of lights.. you may think we are dating but i tot it was just a fun outing.. as for me, i'd never want a date in my life before i reach 25.. i promise.

then next day which is today, i had the best adventure of a lifetime.. i myself tried to get to harbour town.. believe it or not.. in the end.. yes i got ter.

it took this.. ride to the city train station.. purchasing a 13-zone ticket (imagine).. i only need one zone to ride frm my house to uni.. i had to get to this place called helensvale.. it was like a ride to seria.. it took one hour plus before i had to transit to harbour town by bus.. tien ah.. finally arrived..
should have brought my cam.. the place cannot be described in words.. one by one, i went thru the shops.. i bought four fila tees.. absolutely nice.. even complimented by my housemates.. just 4 for 50. so worth it. a khaki pants and a good blue outfit for 35. the whole trip had me satisfied but guess what..

i found my wallet lost once during fitting.. for the second time in my life here in brisbane, my precious wallet is saved.. the salesgirl gave back to me and warned me never to lose it again.. i already lost it twice.. :p (bit guilty actually. planned to buy things back home for tis trip. but to no avail. cant buy for sis or mom, i cant choose women's clothes.. dad has too many clothes.. i'll try tomorrow)

the next few days i guess.. was to prepare and pack up and do the remaining cleaning.. i just want to meet ivan and joel before i leave.. i'll leave after church.. so fast especially thinking how with this tedious life of mine has just past.. yawn.. prepare to call back home.. its getting colder and more humid.. raining.. soon.. i will see sunny brunei..