just to express...

it's been some time now since i first arrived here.. thinking back it was on the 5th july tat i first stepped foot onto aussie land and frm there, life of independence followed.. so now on the 21st sept, it's been near three months.. many things have changed.. life on my part and on others as well.. things once used to be.. being kept tight now has gone loosen.. new things begin to surface and bring abt a new life again.. this continues on as life will never always be the same, from time to time, till the clock ticks to the very end..

all this while, i've been keeping the life principles in my head.. knowing what's most appropriate after years of drastic experience.. the point to knit a cloth substantively bit by bit until a cotton attire is done.. tat is wat i know how life should work.. here.. i thought it's also worth mentioning the term -balance- if life's not a balance, what more can be a life of stature without it? tat's wat i'm seeking.. a life of mediocre.. balance of all.. simple and sweet, full of life..

for some sights, this may seem to be alrite but for some it isn't.. as i know my way.. it always seem to be distorted by influence.. only some whom i know, go for my thoughts.. to those who don't.. i've been trying to be 'within' them.. i'm new.. i could need some time.. but i also know.. i could need some respect for who i am.. i can't be committed due to reasons coz i know my way here.. if you can't respect me.. why should i respect you?

i really hope.. i can go on to be myself during times of gathering.. hmm.. looking around my house.. it's actually quite good.. for the first few tastes, it wasn't a home.. but now i know, as i get a hold of myself, all it really is.. 's just time to put things to normal.. now i can be more satisfied thinking abt the good things tat i haf now.. how lucky tat i dun have to worry abt budgetting.. i dun have to pay anything at all and it's all the government's effort to bring us here and build us up.. how life may be tough here, wat would it be worse if finance steps in..

that's what i'm so gladful for and i know my purpose here.. all i really need is balance to grow.. not to strive till flat and dead.. a routine once a day.. a lil' bit of faith and not more.. occasional social initiatives and *confide*nce.. mediating between work and play.. not cool nor lame.. not wise nor foolish.. i just want life...

tat's why im glad to have frens who'd take note of me.. yawn.. im just me isn't it.. my brunei frens, still can't leave them behind.. :) mei.. i know of sincerety n nothing else.. and my housemates are great~ yawn.. ok la.. i think tat's it.. a recap if u think it's complicated.. heh.. haf a good nite and hope for a silent nite.. :)

recap in paras~
1) life is meant to explore
2) life principles
3) the need for respect
4) self-content
5) importance of balance
6) praise them..