life.. (in a certain way)

ok.. first things first.. have i got this as a blog title before? seems like all this while i've been telling stories about life and all.. i think i'd have put it once.. oh yea once dated 29/6, the day b4 my b'day, titled 'life..' so maybe this time i'd make a replica again and call it the same.. :) coz i think this post is still just life..

just now was so funny and exhilirating.. i had a record of my voice.. somehow went on to sing with no standard lyrics.. it could be chinese mixed with some type of lang.. ok look.. i wanted feedback and a lil` fun i guess.. :D so what? i went to ask ppl for comments.. sending them a file of my record and pranked it to be jay's.. lolz.. the outcome...

one was like, 'it doesn't sound like jay.. i think it was terrible..' and the other was saying.. 'i would give a two out of ten..' with.. 'there's no tone, no rhythm.. as the list goes on..' i was totally thrown down to the ground.. heheh.. not to mention it was so funny tat i wasn't feeling bad at all after a few seconds..

i was thinking.. man.. i've been singing for three years now.. almost everyday and still yet no one complimented on my singing.. u're right yung soon.. if u got no voice and no born-talent.. no use to keep on singing.. lolz.. :p but singing has always been my heart.. i dunno when i can sing on stage.. maybe my voice is just the way it is.. erm.. i'll just keep practising until i can sing.. as in 'can sing' tat's what i mean.. >.<

its been quite a while since i'd had a long chat.. rarely i get the chance to talk for long since i came here.. somehow today i managed to have two.. one with my senior, livie and the other with azim.. talking can be quite a blessing especially when u get to express.. hmm..

the chat with livie was an easy-flowing one.. we talked abt life and academic stuff.. the fun and misses for brunei.. the courses tat she took for each sem.. i was seeing pharmacology to be quite interesting and cutting cadavers and taking out organs with biomedical anatomy to be quite challenging too..

nonetheless, we had the same thoughts in most stuffs.. all along, i've always got this thought of her tat she can be a good role model to the ppl out there.. she's very positive in terms of her character and attitude.. friendly and thankful.. never the egoistic-type and tat is what i really like about personalities..

azim was with sharing out thoughts and talking abt life as well.. maybe just tat the chance to get to talk to each other nowadays is quite rare.. here in aussie i get a bit of feel.. well not to say lonely.. but rather more independent as an individual.. erm.. get to do stuffs on my own and sometimes when i tend to fall, i keep reminding myself.. life's great in some way.. my frens and family back home.. and with my new-found life.. its great.. so.. it's self motivation in a sense and to me.. its all about maintaining a balance in life.. tat's wat i learn from a handful of experience.. ;p

without one person, i knew i could have fallen easily.. i was thinking.. i could even have accepted jesus sooner.. but she's really helped me a lot.. giving lots of encouragement, tat's why my strength and faith wasn't focused much upon christ.. but was pretty much on the belief tat frens like her are this important.. just couldn't feel much better when she sent me a care msg tis morning.. thanks mei~

so i pretty much know in mind how important frens are.. i wouldn't want to describe how relationships are.. but i know giving up frenship for the sake of a relationship definitely isn't worth it.. i dun mean the case, reminiscing back.., whereby i lost lizzy and 'she' had to go off.. but the thing is now i know 'i' wouldn't even want to do things like this again to spoil it.. even i could have done it just recently but i chose not to.. i wanted frenship more than anything else..

life's not only abt this.. erm.. its about urself.. hmm.. okok.. and god.. i still need to learn more.. :p but i can say its just tat.. life's experience will not bring u anything else but good.. just explore and see the world.. its about u dealing with every life's aspects.. using the mind to learn and deal with certain issues.. hmm.. complicated ey? dun really need to get it.. heh.. just live life and we'll know..

life has got to have reinforcements too and somehow i've only been getting them frm a few of my frens.. i'd even want to take charge and keep reinforcing others, especially my juniors (for goodness sake), if i have to.. coz somehow im not young anymore u know.. not sure.. but reinforcements for my part, i rely only upon a few of them..

speaking about reinforcements.. somehow lost track of jocy.. how've u been.. *homesick* heheh.. plse teach me singing... i'm so bad.. this weekend i'll reply my msges.. sorry.. 've been quite bz with stuff.. angela, val and mei.. anat's exam tomolo.. gonna doze off.. wish me luck~ :p - sz