last touch~
full of relief but also many thoughts and feelings tat flowed by during tonite's care grp..
full of relief coz i decided to let go.. stared her for few times thinking tis wud be the last.. i know what i'll have to do to be back again.. to be back for next yr.. tonite's my last ccm session..
din know love can be tat influential to others coz all the while its my world.. thinking, mind affecting and hurting emotions came thru my way for three months.. till when it's reached its peak now, i know what i haf to do.. i just have to cling onto my way.. do my thing and let time do the rest...
on the way home, daniel and i had a chat.. really gonna miss him as a fren when he leaves.. never had i met someone who can talk as fluent and open.. wat more to say the interest, the way.. the idol and all.. love also dealt with him.. not really tat i din know abt it, but i din think it'd affect him as great as me.. tot i'm really the one person who's not normal.. same situation as me.. same feelings.. same degree and same outcome.. talking to him as we walked lifted my heart up.. really we just opened up to each other.. u know wat we should do.. :) sigh.. not gonna haf much time with u eh.. sadz...
ok looking to the bright side..? karen is already warning me.. hoping tat i will write 'cheerier' blogs soon.. haha.. if u look thru my past frenster blogs well.. it has most cheerier times.. just recently, life is a bit tough on one.. so.. heh.. im planning my best on my studies.. hope i can do it.. i know i can.. do hard for these two weeks and then exams.. then leave for home.. really miss home...
ok.. i'll really haf to start to be happy.. i thought really blog is abt expressing toughness but looking thru.. it doesn't sound nice to mourn every single time in posts huh? i really feel bad for joce.. dunno y.. she has to start all over.. tough tough.. but really i pray for her determ and effort to get out of it.. really i do..
tonite first time ccm event taken charged by me.. man.. good the game turned out well.. wow.. hee.. not tat i dunno my capability.. remember mib presentation all clap for me kali ah.. tsk tsk.. and no others.. hee.. i dunno la.. but i derived this talent from my dad whos quite social and interactive.. he makes the world lively.. so.. hee.. (hee.. is jess usual quote, kept using it coz its cute..) and also hah~!
thanks god.. wat u've given to me.. a life of joy.. a life of hope.. but just as most.. a life..! in this place.. oh god.. i thank you.. and i apologise for my non-commitment and decision to leave frm Your eyes at the moment.. You've indeed given so many things for me to ponder on and for which i'm really thankful for.. i thank you once again for ur guidance here in brisbane and i'll be back.. when things are settled.. im sure i will...
p.s. please be cheerier.. write more cheerier blogs.. exams.. arh..! mei.. one week.. u want me to delay another.. nope i dun think so..
full of relief coz i decided to let go.. stared her for few times thinking tis wud be the last.. i know what i'll have to do to be back again.. to be back for next yr.. tonite's my last ccm session..
din know love can be tat influential to others coz all the while its my world.. thinking, mind affecting and hurting emotions came thru my way for three months.. till when it's reached its peak now, i know what i haf to do.. i just have to cling onto my way.. do my thing and let time do the rest...
on the way home, daniel and i had a chat.. really gonna miss him as a fren when he leaves.. never had i met someone who can talk as fluent and open.. wat more to say the interest, the way.. the idol and all.. love also dealt with him.. not really tat i din know abt it, but i din think it'd affect him as great as me.. tot i'm really the one person who's not normal.. same situation as me.. same feelings.. same degree and same outcome.. talking to him as we walked lifted my heart up.. really we just opened up to each other.. u know wat we should do.. :) sigh.. not gonna haf much time with u eh.. sadz...
ok looking to the bright side..? karen is already warning me.. hoping tat i will write 'cheerier' blogs soon.. haha.. if u look thru my past frenster blogs well.. it has most cheerier times.. just recently, life is a bit tough on one.. so.. heh.. im planning my best on my studies.. hope i can do it.. i know i can.. do hard for these two weeks and then exams.. then leave for home.. really miss home...
ok.. i'll really haf to start to be happy.. i thought really blog is abt expressing toughness but looking thru.. it doesn't sound nice to mourn every single time in posts huh? i really feel bad for joce.. dunno y.. she has to start all over.. tough tough.. but really i pray for her determ and effort to get out of it.. really i do..
tonite first time ccm event taken charged by me.. man.. good the game turned out well.. wow.. hee.. not tat i dunno my capability.. remember mib presentation all clap for me kali ah.. tsk tsk.. and no others.. hee.. i dunno la.. but i derived this talent from my dad whos quite social and interactive.. he makes the world lively.. so.. hee.. (hee.. is jess usual quote, kept using it coz its cute..) and also hah~!
thanks god.. wat u've given to me.. a life of joy.. a life of hope.. but just as most.. a life..! in this place.. oh god.. i thank you.. and i apologise for my non-commitment and decision to leave frm Your eyes at the moment.. You've indeed given so many things for me to ponder on and for which i'm really thankful for.. i thank you once again for ur guidance here in brisbane and i'll be back.. when things are settled.. im sure i will...
p.s. please be cheerier.. write more cheerier blogs.. exams.. arh..! mei.. one week.. u want me to delay another.. nope i dun think so..
posted by keith at
11:10 pm
8 Comments:
hey swait zin...din seems to be able to access here much...dats y i cudn't comment lately...hmm...who ask u to move ur blog here?!! dun tink i wud comment much here in d future...i'll try la...btw...only one-sided love is foolish...it's not foolish anymore when d other person finally fall in love with u...d feeling is so gud...u know dat kind of feeling or not??!!! haha
annyeonghigaesaeyo
oh yeah...4got to ask u to take care of urself...but i tink u're ok lah over there...anyway...wat cud happen to u??!! haha j/k
oh yeah 4got to ask...ur handphone ok ordi or not?? y no contact us one??!! thomas keep pestering me ordi... u better call him 1st...haiya
oh yeah...when u coming back again? can simply change flight one meh?? dun feel like coming back ordi ah?? haha...when u come back dun 4get to bring ur other half also k...msg me when ur hphone ok ordi..
in the name of the lord.. :D
pang yung soon! heh~ i tot u disappear already~ tsk tsk.. eh.. someone acting like as if the girl fell for him oh.. like real wahah~! i tot u're the victim no meh.. oops.. heh..
hey u tk of urself too la.. im coming back very soon. these next two weeks crucial.. then exams.. so cannot contact u guys yet.. i'll b back on the 18th nov.. early la.. where got i dun wanna come back..
wat u mean by the other half ah.. hmm.. :p
Hey! What do u mean by ur last ccm meeting??!!! U mean for this year or forever?? But hey, it's gd to take some time off to fellowship with bros and sis in Christ even when busy with exam preparations la. Not healthy to be just alone with books. U need the family of Judah 1 and God! =)
Thanks for the comment on my blog. And well done on the games on Fri! Thanks for the yummy chocs as the prizes too! (Cadbury Picnic is my fav!*Yumyum*)
hi :)
heh.. kaz.. i had to leave ccm for a while for some reasons.. :) not coz of exams tgh.. be back next yr.. oh~ kazzie's not gonna be here.. *knock my head*
to whoever you are.. thanks for admiring me.. haha.. whether u're a girl or a guy(u culprit..!) :p
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