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1 to go.. changed the outlook.. looks better nw.. i've been writing.. practically not knwing how many visits are there.. but i just write.. wonder who reads them.. written are facts of my life.. and as do a reflection of my individual personality.. the events, feelings and just.. all abt life~

looking back.. i was childish.. b4 i was a person who's just so urged to make things rite.. i just want everythn to be good.. i wud let in issues.. seemingly not rite.. rationalise.. reaching for the best.. tried to compromise, reconsider.. resolve.. round and round again.. they come as it turns.. round my mind as it goes.. not seemed like any second or hour it'd ever end.. it just happened to make life so so complex...

i wanted the best frm ppl.. i wanted goodness in relationships.. i tried hard to be in accordance so that i'd claim to have made an effort in crediting towards frenships.. i dreaded at every staleness.. and ended up not knwing myself anymore when tat happens.. but i thought.. how can it be normal if everythn seems to turn out rite.. there must be really some things that can go bad as life isn't perfect.. but still.. it's not as bad as u wud possibly think..

i wanted to know myself.. i tried so hard to find that life in me.. seeking for that part tat wud being peace and joy.. trying all ways.. rationalising the world out there with their displays.. and taking them in.. compromising yet again the irony of things.. wondering how wud ppl think of me? what if i'm not with them or not like them? i'd seek for love.. why isn't there much around.. why am i feeling that inner disatisfaction and self-loneliness? why..

life isn't what you think it wud be.. open ur eyes.. think of the ppl around u.. have u forgotten ur frens? ur family..? have u forgotten those self-interests in u.. how bout ur goals? haven't you got anything in mind where you wanna go and what you wanna do..? haven't you thought about what you can do and others in the world out there with misfortunes who couldn't do the things you can possibly do.. can u walk? can u breathe? do you have an incurable disease? do u have problems with money.. do u find it hard to live each day, worrying abt whether you will have a plate of meal on the table? do you ever really think you have a problem? ask twice.. do you ever really think you have a problem..

then why bother abt those little tiny bits of unrest! where are you?! you have money.. you have food.. you have health.. in fact, my life has always been good.. only to be ruined by thoughts tat i'm not good.. i have the best frens.. who helped me to find myself.. i have the best potential.. the best future tat life could ever offer.. and at most, i have time.. i have hope... you dunno whether you'll live on another day after each tomorrow.. so live life to its fullest.. just for urself and for those who find love in you..

i'm cancer.. that's why i'm a bit of love-concerned.. but it's lame to have it on me as a guy.. but i treasure it.. :) neh.. b4 i go.. just want to intro a site.. feels good to visit and inspires for anything abt love and frenships- http://99percentofthetime.blogspot.com. And lastly, post these words of inspiration as quoted frm '1 litre of tears'.

The other side of suffering
Ikeuchi Aya

Everyone feels pain.
But surely after suffering, satisfaction will arrive.
Even with sports, studying or other ordeals.
With life, it's like that for everyone.
If we can beat the pain, on the other side,
a rainbow of happiness awaits us.
That will definitely become a treasure.
Let's believe in that.

Step by step
Ikeuchi Aya

When my existence seems to disappear,
I will look for the place where i can do the best i can.
From now on, I'll deliberate slowly.
I won't be impatient.
I won't be greedy.
I won't give up.
Because everyone takes things step by step.