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heh.. happy b'day to me...

oh yea wanna update b4 i forget.. just remembered a few funny things b4 i arrived here..

at airport met one of the accnting students of the same batch as us.. had a chat with her.. smehw so happened we booked the same flight dates and airline the last time we came back, and now coincidentally we met each other again.. i asked, have i met you? it was with smiles, she replied, hah.. we came back the same time last year.. peculiar we had to bypass sg and wait for a few hours roaming around, instead of taking rba, such a funny feeling.

and an indian sitting beside me was doing his worship.. hah.. he’s in his senior age, being very conservative, he'd ask me or the stewards what time.. and when the time is right, he wud pray.. mumble.. heheh.. i wasn't really able to sleep much hah..

okay la. now its my 21-abt post.. heh.. its not tat i dun have the time in the world to have fun on my bday.. im gonna have it at nite.. i just feel i want to have in tis special occasion a time where i can reminisce and think abt how i've changed for the past 3 years.. and also anything i just feel to write as being myself, living my tis.. overexceedingly colourful life.

these past three years i can say have been the highlights of my life.. ppl say living frm ages 19-21 are the hardest times coz its when u start to find urself as you grow from teenage to adulthood.. it's also the time when u learn how to live according to ur way, the way you want it to.. i can say i've changed a lot lot since my college days in md..

i used to be a very self-centred person.. its when i found adi, i changed.. i began to instill love upon others.. frm tis, i learnt tat love is not just all abt feelings.. u can feel for her till the very death if u choose to.. thing is.. i learn tat other criteria also has to come to place.. its finding the right type tat finds the person in you.

negative i used to be actually.. :) im one person who's very much the type keeping things to myself till the day when i had to break.. i didn't realise the importance of frens till when i met lizzy.. its actually this two, lizzy and jocelyn.. meeting them is like finding the first ever frens of my type.. they had been thru things tat i was yet to go thru then.. its coz of them i began to sculpture my life more towards of my type and also one being fren-based.

hah.. i met some frens along the way.. jess is a very open minded one.. and i too relied on a few others.. of coz my true group of frens came soon.. ys, thomas and thomas.. felt quite a lot with them coz of the things we've shared and inspired together.. with tat just want to say with lizzy, I began to acknowledge the role of peer differences in relationships. i became more sophisticated and also started to express and blog by her influence.

my next highlight moment was independence. i got to Brisbane, where i started to live life by myself. its not easy being independent and its here where i begin to see many things, meet many different ppl and acknowledge its a harsh world out there.. frm these, i changed for the better.. i strived to keep myself on track, to find myself despite any influences along the way.. i learn to love myself and not just to mainly please ppl to make myself happy.. true happiness is what you have to search within urself; reinforced by tina.. :)

angelene was quite as badly influential as lizzy.. she's very much an infat, a foolish inspiration exaggerated.. with her, i never knew tat meddling relationships can be pretty much detrimental.. she used to be able to totally turn me over due to temptation. with her, i realised how important it is to appreciate oneself despite the fact she had me exp the other way and to distinguish between frens and community partners.

many times at present, i learn to appreciate the one i am now.. writing this.. expressing all these is my part.. it doesnt matter if the things i do is right or wrong in other ppl's view, as long as i know is rite tats all it matters.. its abt being who i am.. learn some things along the way..

erm.. happiness is to think, to do and to say things in harmony.. so now i usually think and do the good things.. positivity is always reprimanded in my mind coz its really really important.. and being content and realising how lucky u are and tat do you really have a problem, or just problem with society? don’t let anyone control ur life and.. emotions to totally take over you..

think of those who find tat person in u.. my parents.. nic.. my housemates.. they are all personality-wise very much saluted.. i really respect ppl with personality.. it tops my list on all occasions.. and love urself.. live life to the fullest while u can.. enjoy when its time, work when u have to.. realise ur goals.. as for me, I want to help others. step by step.. ;)

hehaehaehehah.. nicholas, my long-lost fren used to laugh like tis.. now i’m more personal-centred and more clickness-based. I see tat this post is more abt ppl and love. these bring abt the main changes of my life.. oh one more thing.. my perspective of love has changed.. :) I dun have to tell u guys.. I just find it funny I finally realised in the end.

one more.. if I dun mention abt u lin shee mei.. u just knw I dun have to.. and how important to have you as a fren, I dun have to say.. how much u mean.. its all here in the heart.. gambate.. ^^

going on hehe.., I salute two role models of mine.. gigi.. erm.. I had gigi since I was form 5.. she gave me a lot of inspiration and had me realised appreciation for life.. by her quote- tgh the whole world wud hate you, never ever hate ur urself.. and also her spirit and positivity along her chaotic relationship with ekin. and bcoz of her, I started to like singing.. :p

kwon boa, I salute her personality.. never ego-type of star.. very disciplined, her quote is to work hard towards your goals.. she gives everyone a very positive feeling frm her smile and excellent personality.. very brilliant singer, she brings me up with her cheerful songs- shine we are, no.1 and other expressive songs like my prayer and garden in the air.

hehehe.. oh ya update my food.. I ate.. fleur de lys carrot cake.. escapade japanese cuisine.. tk’s curry rice.. heheh.. sweet pop-corn.. nasi katok.. coffee bean’s cold chocolate.. gonna have empire hotel’s french cuisine.. heaheaheaheh :p im so lucky..

my bday.. have to think of somethn else tgh im not greedy.. no presents.. kesian.. jk la.. my frens sang me a bday song at 12am yest.. wahah.. funny. erm.. how long is this post already.. oh my god.. heheh.. anyways.. hai~ b’day post.. heheh.. erm.. hehehe.. ok.. gonna have fun.. itadakimas.. sayonara everyone.. :) gambate..