a huge influence

after this incident, i'll be more mature.. tis is not a joke.

earlier went on to create my longest post ever. tat was a huge part of my in-depth expression of everything. all of a sudden, clicked out. all disappeared. i was shocked and cold. totally out-minded. i couldn't take it. then lead tao happened to ring me. "how are you?" i thought what on earth is happening. i tried to re-write. i couldn't. frm ter, i knew it's God's will.

i could have felt a huge impact on my mind. yes there was. one part was being stunned. the other was a change. a huge one. i know the sense of maturity better now. this image of life tat without God i couldn't have seen it. thanks for your glory.

i know wat's to differentiate betw a journal and a blog either. i pictured through what i typed earlier b4 all was gone. it's not meant to be published. it's meant to make you feel better.

thanks ivan for tis quote
i learned, "you don't feel your way to good behavior but you behave your way to good feeling"

live life with every opportunity. think steady. go stable. life is meant to be meaningful.

current feeling: hope to finish work by tomorrow. then get to study terms again. then back to home. fuff..

end-feeling: undescribable.. not in God's terms.. in terms of my heart.. the down-side... :/