till when..

i have you by my side.. that's why i knew i could go on..

i know it's all abt the mind.. it's how you think.. i also know it's all in the mind.. it's what you put in it.. in the end.. it's still abt choice.. to choose to think abt it or not..

- i needed time b4 i could realise.. i needed time b4 i could actually open my eyes.. it's not abt the pesky self no more.. but it's the self for survival.. tat i could start being.. tat i never knew as much.. no more lame stuff.. it's time for housekeeping..

- i slipped thought ever since.. weaknesses overwhelmed.. for good or bad.. i lost independence.. the spirit and confidence.. recalling was always the worst part.. thinking goodness wasn't much different.. the last resort.. finding a way out? so it's not for me to think.. yet not for me to solve.. but it's for me to just let it be..

- apprehending future.. why bother. worrying past.. why regret. living the present.. why not live now.. appreciate now.. leave the past.. things that can't be changed.. let time heal and make us accept the way they are.. there's no reason why life should not sustain.. be it this way or that.. it's still up to you to make it..

these verses wouldn't have been repeating themselves if life is perfect.. and when the phrase comes out like this.. 'i know what to do now..', it's always never the case.. we're just murmuring in our dreams.. it's only when something clicks and at times.. when we start to realise, then life will begin to change frm there on..

i just wanna thank ys for the chat for three midnite hours.. thanks nicole for securing my confidence again.. and mom for anything at all.. :)