full..

a typical day.. but filled with life.. as in 'life' tat's not full of wonders and joy.. but life as in itself.. that is meaningful and yet miraculous.. isn't it cool tat i'm living nw.. 'transform your thinking, see life for the miracle it is and focus on living not just existing' - quoted frm sanity savers.

it's a full day indeed.. and after all this, i'd just want to thank a few ppl.. the class was a bit early after 2 weeks of after-8 sleeps.. determined to get up.. reminded of well-being.. wanted to make sure i'm well taken care of with that balance.. for rejuvenation yet just making it as a normal habit each day.. skipped b'fast to catch the bus.. got to class at 8.. 1st lecture.. then had cafeteria sandwich for b'fast..

was planning all the way as a step-by-step thing.. taking things slowly & orderly.. kay.. wanna do this first.. went for assignment hand-in.. printing lecture notes.. surfing mails.. making appt.. helping to make sure i do the things i needed.. i had an exam at 5..

bumped into this person i've been mentioning lately.. which seemed like we didn't have class till noon, so went for a chat.. think it was for like 1 1/2 hour.. one thing i just wanna say abt her.. she's sincere and coincidentally, i never wud ever regard her as being similar to me.. but after talks for long, i found out we're just like clones.. it's rare indeed to find ppl like us..

we're.. or rather us.. we just.. well.. she's wacky but nice.. on the other hand, i might be crazy a bit but.. i do that, most intentionally, for some sake of putting smiles on ppl's faces.. she likes making ppl happy too.. she's a chocoholic.. i am too.. but she's far worse than me.. 3-4 bars a day.. and in tat morning itself, she has already taken 3 bars.. god save her..!

we just doubt some things, by which one way we clicked.. characteristically-wise, we are similar.. sincere, open, hearteous.. i dunno but i rarely wud have met anyone in brisbane so as sincere as me but guess who's the other.. hmm.. same experiences.. losing ourselves just for some bit** (it's jerk for her). well, i can't really curse.. it's not anyone's fault by nature.. it's just difference.. :)

but yea.. one thing she makes me realise is that.. it's not worth it.. losing ourselves for ppl.. (especially feeling-caught ppl) tgh it's just so hard to find ppl who'd make you think you're not the odd one in this world.. just be hopeful, you'll find them.. and agreeable some ppl aren't meant to be frens at all.. bad impression, bad experience.. just by getting along.. just acceptance and letting it behind.. coz you're just who you are.. :)

but great to have her for some talk.. and for reinforces.. 'we're beautiful on the inside, they just dunno..' may be lame but very agreeable.. :D after leaving her, i went for lunch.. on my mind, i wanted to start budgeting.. str8 after lunch, met with damit for revision.. it's great to work with him.. wanted to prepare, so we just dwelt into revision and discussion for 3 straight hrs.. imagine the energy spent.. 2 hrs chat, then 3 hrs revision.. during the time, i had some cadburies and snicker bars.. more energy wasted.. (do you ever know eating high-cal food like chocolate just wastes ur energy.. it wastes not only energy but health, not the heart.. :p)

straight went for a half-hr exam.. it was a so-so thing.. but i thought i did my best.. :) i was so blundered in the end, i just felt like not doing anything.. fast-food again for dinner?, i thought.. dun wanna spoil myself.. went for some groceries in the late hrs of dusk.. it did help me with some satisfaction.. in the end, i make myself a good sandwich with lots of lettuce, ham, cheese and omega bread (good for the brain) i'm healthy ey.. i think we need constant fibre to keep the bowel going and fluid to keep the mind afresh.. :)

imagine how stressed i was, i just cont to maintain life.. i think tat might be the way.. i even did budgeting.. 33 for transport.. 25 for food.. tgh i knw, i have not reviewed my anatomy for tomorrow, there's still time.. i haven't played.. quoting ss, 'we should leave some time, even for a few minutes everyday, to just play.' but it's ok.. blogging is some sort of my hobby anyway..

i just want to thank a few ppl.. tat i've awaken, i won't fall tat easily or at least i wud try not to.. wanna thank my family.. for making me realise my goals and self.. wanna thank someone who finds me back and had me starting to inspire life.. wanna thank that sincere person who seems to be similar.. :) wanna thank a fren and brother who supported me emotionally.. wanna thank my sincere frens at home who'd make me think of them and thought.. hmm.. what life.. :D and lastly.. just wanna thank whoever i've forgotten to thank.. oh yea.. sister.. my sister-in-law.. not tat i've got a brother.. it's my sister.. the best of luck for her graduation..

11.19.. being mature i guess it's not so simply said for short.. okay gtg.. live life..