wake up call

afterall- surprisingly met dibah here in brunei! thought i was the only one back, she had it last min to come home.. amongst the raveling rays of the hot sun in frnt of mcd in gadong.. haha glad to see her. i feel much better after chatting with her. she too is very positive. yea indeed, not a lot of us did well. just can't wait to enjoy now.. just take english next sem to pull up~ hah! :D ~ endpost-

after all these, i took out my pod.. i requested healing.. straight it brought out the 1st song.. good pod. track 6- cheer chen. like this song. how melancholy i am i thought.. & thinking abt the person whom i relate this track to.. how we cud have become great frens.. next track played by hyolee.. a new artist bringing abt a fresh feeling and a comfortable one, for which now i'd wish for.. a new life.. a less neurotic attitude.

my results came out. it was not very good, very much traumatic to say at first sight.. very unexpected.. many times i told myself how i ruled each paper.. and when it came, i fell quiet and deeply solemn.. it was the worst i've got of all the semesters in ubd + uq, despite thinking it was the best i've performed so far.. so wat u think i have to do? fall? mourn? i had to for a short while.. but no.. i still have to acknowledge the bright side.

im beginning to think how really all-round maintenance is tat imprnt.. last semester i did tat, but i kinda fall out this sem due to problems.. but really i've done my best and its all worth it. its how strict and competitive it is here. to relieve myself i'd think.. i expect tyng to get 7 in her anatomy and if she gets a 5, then i a 6 then i must have 4.. now i know 6 is always the perfect score.. im proud to have got 6 last sem..

if i get this result, im quite worried abt jasmine.. i really couldn imagine hers.. i just chat with sharon.. she's very very positive. i know i can get to mbbs even if i repeat this score next sem but i just feel disappointed really tat it wasnt expected. but with her, she said as long as we get thru and graduate, its all that matters.. its really not like its the end of the world.

i reminisced how really hard-fought it had been the past months, when i had to get myself 'back up' everyday to keep it up and work hard.. its so not easy and now.. im really really glad tat im thru.. for this i really want to thank those.. without them, i couldnt have made it.. thank my family esp and one person.. whom wud always remain in me as that spirit.. be positive and never to give-up.

haha.. im back anyways.. u know what.. i ate so many things.. and glad tat im in yayasan now.. i really miss visiting here and yest i just went to the mall again with ys.. bought so many cds and the cakes frm mum.. i passed by the mosque in bandar.. what a view.. esp now tats sunny.. and im expecting brisbane to be cold hehehe...

let me see.. can i update.. im glad tat i cud eat so many things and not be like a blob.. let me see.. mum cakes.. korean kimchi soup.. home-cooked codfish.. dumplings.. my grandma's dishes.. man.. >.<''' tph's beef noodle soup.. all the redbean and big pau.. nasi katok.. dairy queen's banana blizzard.. empire spaghettini's beef steak.. did i mention tat im going hk.. i think im gonna be damn spoiled.. :D i think all of you in aussie must be drooling... lolz..

thanks lizzy for the present. at least, it compensated the three exp bears.. jk. wish u all the best in canada. know ur goal, be a good doctor.. ok i think its long enough. compared to b4, now its been much better.. its always my aim to be less neurotic and to look forward to the good things.. heh.. im going hk.. im gonna enjoy it.. ikimas..

p.s. happy b'day sister.. joanne.. tan yuan zin.. haha.