jia you...

i just realise i blog everyday.. wat an emotional species.. all was just to express troubles and problems.. just to let it out. u know wat.. i thought a lot today and indeed many things.. so many things which i thought really would change me in the next few years in aussie lo.. just today i decided to take an off-rest after many days of studying.. went for mind-comfort to southbank for the first time..

by the jetty, i had a time of lone.. just thinking and talking to myself.. clarifying all sorts of areas in my life.. wat could have been wrong.. caught up with pride and prejudice b4 i went home.. looked thru my frenster blog.. i realised so much transition in me.. i've changed a lot.. :) so many things have shaped me.. but i dun like the change either.. i just want a normal life...

i want to know priority here.. i just want to be less-involving now.. thinking more complicated life will lead to more distractions and problems.. i just want to be a house-man.. just washing clothes.. occasional just meeting frens and chatting and just be a uni student.. i just want this life.. i learnt..

they are really many different types of ppl and i learnt abt love influence.. its hard to control feelings.. but know.. do know in mind.. things wouldn't have become like this if the two are meant to be.. it takes interaction and easy-go to bring two together as frens b4 u can actually watever.. but.. to me.. i know love can be this influential.. im deciding already.. not to put too much hope on it anymore till when the time comes.. i.e. after i've got my degree..

erm.. abt christianity which came as a burden. coz i know my life situation.. my emotions are more prone to bad results.. i want to breathe air.. so long i haven't if u know wat i mean.. so long...

i just thought heh.. like today.. wat i did.. i'll just post here.. today i went to southbank 5 cinemas.. and lala.. haf fun u know.. :p then saw a variety of birds flying around by the lake.. hee.. and ordered a charsau and wonton noodle in toowong.. hee.. im not enjoying life.. im just making myself prepared to go for the challenges the next few days.. i want to be strong.. i want to be tough.. and i want to be positive.. no more mourning! no more sadness.. no more regret.. i have to persist...

i may miss you guys but life's like tat eh.. survival of the fittest.. i know i may not do well in my exams this yr but i know the reasons.. but it just give you exp.. i choose my life ho.. i still help ppl... tat's it.. ok la.. jia you sz.. if not how u can be a dr? be tough..