on this day~

you want a good quality blog? i'll try..

this day is a mixed day.. for the most of it, it was good and just.. i said just.. it probably went wrong somewhere.. i just had a conversation with my mom and dad.. it wasn't tat good.. probably i was hungry.. i couldn't give in a good conversation.. i din have late dinner or maybe coz i spent one hour talking on the phone earlier with someone else..

probably, i couldn't foster talking too long.. just when i thought i was about to blog suddenly this phone ring came.. not tat it was not pleasant but i can feel the burden, bringing me back to the times when i had to cause the mind to think.. in other words mind's distracted.. moreover, it wasted my time which i could use to blog.. now i have to blog late.. darn~

anyways.. phy xm today was not bad.. now i really understand the importance of revising the day b4 an xm.. strived and i tried my best.. it was a good paper.. it came out as what i expected.. i hope for a 6.. though i left 10mcqs blank just to get 2 marks.. it might be a strategy but do laugh at me and cont even aft i show you my result.. okay?

so much today was mostly just rest.. oh yea.. just i went to take a jog.. i decided to go for toowong village.. to-fro and back for the nite coz i felt my body needs to burn off calories frm the full dinner and lunch tat i had.. as i head on, along the way i saw these two senior ladies, one holding the other just coz the other was limping.. they were heading the other direction.. i arrived the village eventually and took my turn back then i came by them again.. still walking slowly..

i had this sympathy usually and i always feel soft-hearted when facing upon old ppl.. i asked "is it a long way frm here?" they both smiled and one replied, "is it a long way for you dear?"

i was thinking.. huh.. they stopped and opened the gate.. hah.. i was laughing in my heart, thinking i wanted to help them in some way but they arrived.. "its alrite.. we arrived.. thanks dear" i bid them a good nite.. i just like this feeling of concern for others.. dun u think mei.. only u and i know.. :p

so this aft was basically two hours of sleep for regeneration and went to pay the bills.. btw, today i had lunch and dinner with jasmine.. funny huh? one was after exam, we bumped into each other..
then in the eve, when i was abt to head to st. lucia bakery *for some reasons.. :p*, i met her again.. she wanted to try out the new casa de meditteranean.. is tat correct spelling? so it was dinner, another meal again..

i fancy her really.. she just makes me think life is just easy.. most of it was talking and she can really talk.. :p talking anything frm drop money price value to china old monuments and frm funny experiences to visiting trips.. anything u can mention, we just talk ah.. haha..

i'm just glad to have a fren like her.. she's very open.. not tat im implying anyone but tat i think she just makes a good fren.. or maybe coz she's frm miri.. we just clicked.. jas, we pursue our education together ah.. i'll give support.. :)

then of coz.. when life was abt to go smoothly.. cleaning up and packing washed clothes, haven't i told u whose tat? it's lidao.. i can talk with him.. i know we have this intelligence.. somehow we clicked for most.. just in-depth discussion but really its all abt chatting.. but of coz it involved a little element of christ questioning which i stupidly asked him abt.. just wondering how to pursue faith in God and why should i..?

i just want to make sure.. though now its not really the right time to think abt these things.. its exams.. i just wanna make sure the urge and the desire to pursue for God comes from me and not anyone else.. not frm her.. i might have realised one fact..

i might be clinging to her ways but this is not rite.. i know wat feelings can do but i know its entirely my decision and not even lidao can change me.. but with some encouragement of coz tat was enough to bring me to mind flushing.. but im still stern.. im still myself...

heh.. yalor.. God ah.. You din give me problems.. but christianity did.. not tat i dun have problems and i can't solve them but the matter is.. its the problems tat come more often when you get to think too much.. lidao is good in rationalising too.. see he mentioned balance and i knew it.. we have the brains to think too.. so i might choose a life for own..

now is really not the time to cont on.. its exam period.. i've refrained the feelings from overflowing.. now its not worth it for another issue to occupy my mind again.. thanks for praying for me even on the phone!

ok.. last.. lee shi.. why i wouldn't do my best if you gave me the encouragement.. after all, you were my mei.. k.. let me do this for you.. just this once..

jocy.. dun worry.. we're sincere.. we do give opinions but we also do give understanding for watever u do.. most imprtnt support ah.. hurt to wake them up? are u implying someone.. grr.. cant wait to go out eat together.. ;) nihongo no restoran? hmm...

sharon's so sweet just.. its been so long since she showed tat sign.. ups and downs between us.. could be due to post-exam.. could be due to lifestyle.. but i decided.. we'll see how i'll confer..

k la.. stop here.. enjoy reading and hope for a solace nite..

signed~ keith
10.11.05, 12.09am