when life goes to the edge...

when life goes to the edge, i feel tough.. it might just be just a part of growing up.. i might be just a process tat you've to go thru just to make you stronger each time and make you realise more.. and improve urself more.. today, i realised a lot of things.. a lot.. and wrote a lot too.. knowing what's to expect for my life ahead in aussie.. it might change.. it might be totally different.. and it might mislead.. but it's all what 'i' think is best...

God.. with struggle.. with emotions and with hope putting upon.. emotions-dwelling circumstances dun do me good.. i know myself.. i couldn't handle emotions properly due to some problems.. knowing God gives hope and a life.. a 'full-life' to ppl out there.. it might give me opportunities to grow upon you.. the church is a nice place for everything.. but its all You that counts tat needs to be realised by every christians there.. its not the music, its not the social opportunities and the name.. unfortunately, i cannot feel this way.. i 'cannot', not tat i dun want to.. i cannot..

i want to be less-involving now.. still in consideration.. need feedback frm head monk monkey? i may change my life ahead for priority suit.. or be less involving in forums so to avoid less..? maybe its not the way.. im still considering..

angel.. you're not a bad fren after all.. you're not different after all.. let us work hard thru and conc for this semester sis.. i'll leave a msg before the 17th..

shee mei.. nice dream yest.. hah.. u know.. i dun want to think of anything anymore for this moment.. but just you.. put my mind onto you.. gambade.. and i know i can do it.. i got straight 6 for today.. just coz of you.. i just want to do it for you..! another second semester to rely on you again..

when life goes to the edge, i write things like this.. i wish to be more mature and joyable sooner or later.. probably during times of stress(work), we are more prone to self-negativity and condemnation.. ok.. *hugz* to SM and joce.. - sz