a turn around~

don't you ever realise tat life depends on how you actually
make your day?

this just popped up in my mind recently when i came across a few examples(life scenes).. life also depends on how you want it to be..

if thoughts seem to go nowhere, life circumstances bring you down, you'd just ought to ponder one moment and say to yourself.. just be hopeful.. things will be good again one day.. and 'believe' is the word. go on with ur life with the greatest joy and meaning, continuously seek for them.. you'd just begin to think you have been cured frm the worst troubles tat wud ruin ur life!

frm all my posts, i guess all of you cud draw out one of my crucial weaknesses.. i.e. person-to-person relationship.. i cud not be settled for the mildest grudges.. the acts of preds or even the slightest of wrong, illogical attitude between you and me.. the least for potential frens.. i wud say it's not really a good thing as i'm not an emotionally strong person and i cud miss weeks of fun just by thinking this over and over.. but say.. i can be the greatest fren you wud ever imagine as i prompt more initiative and sincerity.. am i saving the good words for myself..? no.. i'm just stating facts here..

i just wanna say it's *really* over now.. i'm lucky tat i've had all three of them coming back to me and get it resolved.. i couldn't imagine how my life wud be if they hadn't.. i'd be strong to think tat i cud cont on positively but i know, no matter what, there's still something on the inside which is not solved.. tat's really my weakness and that ter's only only way to solve it.. by being open again.. as for they are my influentials.. i wonder how it'd be for the next.. wouldn't bother to think abt it!

today why this post is named is really a turn around.. i never had the best of smiles for a long time.. today is just great :) morn- received a msg which tells it all.. a visit to the doctor after tat, around 10.30, just for suspicion of malignoma on my toe~ a purple skin surface to find out only its blood.. dr. john bennett is a great man.. he can be so nice till he goes on scrapping the sole part of ur toe, slowly and slowly, exposing the layers till he proves physically tat it's blood tat's stucked between the layers of the skin.. normal stuff.. 'i like to do this, to reassure my patients.. it's my job.. proving physically is better than just verbal talks..' hmm.. :p

next went to this academic advising dept.. for course advices.. met up with this sri lankan girl who's the frenliest girl i met to date since i came.. she just makes me laugh every instant.. making a distinction between indians and sri lankans.. tat indian accent is just yuck.. tat's when i start to realise how cud it be better if you have the initiative to talk to ppl and to feel better around.. but i can say we 'clicked' in a way.. :p next is the funniest.. oh man.. my academic advisor almost wanted to struck a hammer on my head.. i'd ask.. "i'm taking five courses this yr.. what do you think?" he replied, "crazy." i'd say.. "do you have anything else to say?" oh man.. i was laughing like..

one more.. "have you ever met any students like this and how well they did?" then.. "they never came back.. they just ended up themselves in the mental hospital or something".. :s

he somehow came to clear my mind tat my actual objective is taking 12 units of 3rd yr courses and to get a GPA of 4.5.. just to make it into medicine.. why stress urself now, when you know you wouldn't have this opportunity to lay back later.. he prompted me onto choosing *any* courses.. seriously any.. he even flipped me into religion.. i blurted out, "huh.. really can?" i even got the chance to know i can take korean.. :p

after all this, i dunno why i feel very much better.. seemingly all the stress was taken out frm my body and i just kept smiling.. he took me out and quoted to others tat he actually put me into a washing machine for brainwash.. :s crazy lecturer.. :p but glad i seeked him earlier.. thanks to ranald for letting me a chance to know this..

i treated myself to good lunch at hawken's 1001 nights.. fabulous, sumptous, juicy steak for just $12.. came back, had a break, getting ready to cook pasta for tonite(if ter's time) and moving to my new acc at 5pm.. i know i'll be quite bz then.. if i want to make things better, why bother to hide? but i thought i'd not turn back.. let me see.. probably i just have to know.. all now is good.. and ter's nothing else of bother.. i'm free now.. tat's the good thing.. (a bit emotionally touched)

lastly, i'd conclude.. still it's all up to how you wanna make it and how you want it to be.. just live it believingly and positively.. and trust god for times.. (jeez.. i put down my..) ok tat's it.. i'm ready for university.. anytime, any soon.. till then.. :D