craps

15th july- is the celeb of our sultan's bday. just got back frm bandar and had a magnificient experience of its nite festival. everywhere, the road is full of cars, streets filled with lights and traffic polices at avery angle of lamp posts. bandar is serene and citizens come out patriotically even at this late hour of the weekend to celeb their ruler's 60th bday. as for me, i happened to roam around after being mice-active post 3-hr sleep tis aft noon.

i revisited my school.. st.george's. whenever i step onto this place, i feel calm. its like reminiscing all the good things, the times when childhood seems none of a matter to the world and its between you and the things you used to aspire and cherish abt. back then, its me and my parents tat matters. hah.. i guess i just love and depended on them very greatly. i've been thru a lot too in sgs. the vast things.. its worth smethn to smile upon.

amongst the street lights, there are stalls selling food and malay delicacies. and i just had pork bun. i went to visit st. andrew's. it seems the whole church was gone to my surprise. i guessed it should be refurbishment. i had a quiet time at sgs. its been a long time..

these few days i admit i've been a bit moody. even my frens realise tat. now im a bit sick, getting recovered frm cough and sorethroat plus greenish phlegm. amoxycillin and benamine were what the doctor gave me :p.. guess the reason is coz.. maybe reason is coz. cant let go of the past at times.

i read thru a book given by smeone for my b'day. and one thing i came across was happiness is not having what you want but wanting what you have. its so true. im never contented with the great time im now having with my frens and family, instead im always stuffing endless thoughts upon things that are no long useful to me. and all that. its a bit unhealthy.. really. if only i cud have some feedback frm ppl. but really im 21. im old enough to live maturely by myself.

going miri tomolo. gonna meet my cuz. replied jasmine just. was stern 2wards her in my reply, just for her sake. i thought she really needs to come out and help herself. i met jocy, lizzy, ys, 2 thomas, aurelius, kelvin, vincent, hon nee.. still one more is jess. i still hadnt had a post on ppl with personality. shes one of them. if im too bz, maybe i'll just leave her souve to ys.

must really seek tat part in you. i knw i will live a very different life next sem, as what i told sharon. coz things change.

eventually i.. i.. still know least, takes another sem.. for it to be gone. i knw i've disappointed many ones the same do as i know they've lived on. its always time to put it behind. and its always my way to mention them again, as its always been my weakness reminising them. i knw i can always count on time..

where's the graduation girl? :)