a deep moment..

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,
our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Make the Yule-tide gay,
From now on,
our troubles will be miles away.

Here we are as in olden days,
Happy golden days of yore.
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more.

Through the years
We all will be together,
If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself A merry little Christmas now.

'And from now on.. you dun have to tell me how much i'm meant for you..'
or how much you're meant for me..
coz i know...

the last song.. after a whole journey of songs.. christmases.. piano spas.. the events of the past.. fluorished.. one by one.. reminiscing.. dreaming.. the tunes that sung.. the voice which healed.. part in part.. from the ear to the heart.. every single pictured moment.. the good and the bad.. the laughters to the cries.. frm fakhriah.. to lizzy.. and to angel.. three very different stories.. that past.. all that i could ever keep.. deep inside..

many things happened.. indeed many things.. how hard it is.. if it isn't for Your strength Father.. or the healing of songs.. even gigi's.. i can hardly think of an outcome.. healing is part of them.. one is personal.. just by the river.. i left my last memories.. knowing it's hard.. but i let everything off.. i let go...

to you now is only whom i appreciate.. i never want anything bad else.. my heart is pure.. i'm melancholy.. do accept and understand me for who i am.. you're different.. i've to maintain it.. i just want to say.. i love you.. i just do.. hope you care...