why?

the reason? guess i'm still adapting la.. spent some time thinking.. and just make it thru and out.. guess it's normal in my case.. given for others as well, they should react the same.. just the simple things i've to remind myself again.. and i should be back then. it's life i guess.. :)

melancholy.. the idea of this spooks me.. but as i get to understand more abt it, i find it's really true and i find it more convincing tat it's me.. i belong to this.. it's nature-borne.. wow.. i smetmes wonder why some ppl can just be so cheerful and mouth-blabbering evry single day while i'd just stay in quiet areas, just liking to be alone doing things that i like to be doing.. oh rather why my mind wud cont think abt something else tat i should not be thinking, as if you were to group it as normal, the joy of the mind and heart owned by most sanguines out there.. i possibly can't think and act the way they do.. i guess it's just the way i am..

i guess i need this kind of pep-talk over and over again.. and it's even tat this talk has to be conducted by myself to me. just to clarify things out and get to go forward again on a new other day.. i'd just want to thank mei again for being my sole motivator of a fren kind.. she has given the many bits of reinforcement tat i thought i couldn't have had it frm anyone else.. guess it's coz of the way i am, tat's y i need her the most.. i'd like to thank you. i'd just even like to thank my close frens for being there when i need them, just in brunei itself.. the times where i'm really now missing where we get together.. and sing out loud and express it all.. i really really won't forgot those times..

reality now is ascertain.. it's getting tougher and harsh by the minute.. only when you have love and full-owned security frm ur peers, i'm sure we can get thru every borders and stones.. even some that could not be changed and you ought to know you just can't do anything to change it.. we should cont live the present.. and go for it.. go for the wonderful things in life.. and for certain one day, tat hope will come.. and says it all.. you're worth it for every trouble tat you've gone thru...