yet another

what's being described to me reigns the most realistic way of living life and which i'd been gripping onto since the setback of my first ever crisis.. and frm which i found life until i began to lose it, yet by another influence, yet by a never-encountered experience..

writing blog can be detrimental sometimes when you have to make up the words with that feeling of intensity inside.. the same as how i'm living now or rather have been living.. tat's the sort of way that only drives me deep.. deeper into that place where you can only sleep but not live.. (haha.. nothing serious.. just my creativity :p)

i acknowledged there are two ways for my problem.. in fact, it's quite complicated.. but the way i think it's best would be that.. to replace or to change thoughts.. in that case, no more things that makes you uncomfortable.. no more things that stresses or gives you burden.. no more things that reminds the past.. to follow up.. living a new life.. start with small goals.. then slowly build up, just to get yourself back again.. back to positivity and comfort.. back to full terms.. back to yourself again..

i'm working on it.. and it's not easy.. i guess everyone in this world is self-centered.. desperately doing things for themselves, just if they thought that wud help them the most.. i dun mind if there are concerns(for me), eventually they'll get back to themselves.. hmm.. just to really get back now coz i've fallen quite deep and struggling.. gonna practise.. gonna find goodness.. gonna seek simplicity and the cherishing nature of the world..

i bought it early.. in fact, i even bought it before 15th march.. i'm thinking and i find it doubting.. it's not rite to give it to.. rather i'd give it to some1 who's placed positive in my life.. then i thought, i'd bought it with an intention for tat person beforehand.. just give it and go..

for once i wud ask how's life? heheh.. soft smile.. the reply wud reflect upon mine and i pondered.. and smiled.. mine's more than just middle.. mine went thru the border.. :) everyone has their problems.. but just need to realise when you need to.. and how to solve them..