do u have to go?

do you have to go.. i have to let you go now..(chorus) ~ baby vox

nice song.. particularly some other ones, very melodious and sentimental.. can't have enough of those..

a lot has happened since the last entry i posted.. i wouldn't bother to put them here like a media story publishing the latest hot news or just small news and matter.. many things.. i'm not to say tat there are really many.. i guess what's really abt it is not the quantity but the quality or intensity tat something has happened.. something has caused me to change and i'm working on it to the right path.. i'm really glad i could come back again to the times i used to be.. where life seemed to be going smoothly with goodness.. not smooth but meaningfully.. fulfillingly.. i'm glad i could go back to tat state.. of hope..

maybe i just want to say a bit few.. let out a bit.. the tears you can let it out for some reasons or maybe even for someone.. you just dunno why they cannot hold and when you burst out, they come flowing like streams.. tat is what's the main course of what's happened.. it's least expected tat i cried for tat someone.. very least.. but i know normally i wud if it's given for tat status of my relationship with her coz i once did it for a different person of same status..

i wouldn't cry for someone who gives me vague feelings.. who hasn't come into my life.. work thru in my life.. but i would cry for tat someone who has done something for me.. coz really i dunno and i guess tat is when you know how imprtnt tat person is when you somehw lost touch thinking abt tat person when you only conc on other tempting and those tat influenced more than tat person did.. i dunno why i teared.. i guess it combined the past memories.. the hurts.. and mixed with the feelings tat i'm gifted with now.. i think i just fear for another bad experience.. and tat i dun want it to happen to tat person.. coz tat person is different.. i guess.. tat's the bottomline..

ok tats enough said abt tat.. erm.. i think last sunday gave me a huge impact.. referring to second para.. abt returning back to that state.. guess i need it coz what happened.. the theme of the service is really touching.. and sometimes i just wonder how we can forgot the love of Him when our eyes wud turn to those rather.. i understand the meaning of prayer.. i understand more thru cds.. and even my latest shepherding.. i realise the conviction.. and i'm really craving now.. i really crave for tat change.. to turn me into the someone.. someone anew.. someone to be replaced with a new heart.. can't really explain in words here.. but really i know the meaning of a prayer now..

Galatians 3:26- 'You're all sons of God thru faith in Christ Jesus."
i hope this will cont to reassure me tat i'm loved.. loved by You.. and tat i've no other worries.. none other can beat Your grace.. and nothing else can be compared.. and what makes the love to be so true than nothing else given.. 'Love Actually.'